Monday, October 27, 2003
i wish my apartment were a place that i actually looked forward to coming home to every evening. but sadly, it's not.
it's rainy and it's time for me to be depressed.
today i've started feeling somewhat unfulfuilled by my life. i guess there could be a number of reasons: 1) i didn't get too much sleep last night or the night before 2) i worked an awful lot this morning 3) at the orchestra rehearsal today i sounded the worst i've sounded in months, despite having practiced five hours this weekend 4) i spent three hours in the library tonight and didn't get a fucking thing done and 5) i came home and one of my roommates is playing headache-inducing music.
seriously, i don't know why everyone needs loud subwoofers. everyone in this damn building seems to have them. everyone in this damn building is obsessed with pop music and sports.
one time, during one of the Cubs games that took place during the world series this year, i was walking down S. Johnson street, and the Cubs scored a home run and the entire street erupted in loud cheering. everyone in a three-mile radius was watching the game, except for dumb old me, walking down the street like an idiot.
why is nonconformism a million times more difficult in college than it was in high school?
not conforming is making me lonely; being lonely is making me detached and irritable; being detached and irritable is making me all the more unpopular.
it's rainy and it's time for me to be depressed.
today i've started feeling somewhat unfulfuilled by my life. i guess there could be a number of reasons: 1) i didn't get too much sleep last night or the night before 2) i worked an awful lot this morning 3) at the orchestra rehearsal today i sounded the worst i've sounded in months, despite having practiced five hours this weekend 4) i spent three hours in the library tonight and didn't get a fucking thing done and 5) i came home and one of my roommates is playing headache-inducing music.
seriously, i don't know why everyone needs loud subwoofers. everyone in this damn building seems to have them. everyone in this damn building is obsessed with pop music and sports.
one time, during one of the Cubs games that took place during the world series this year, i was walking down S. Johnson street, and the Cubs scored a home run and the entire street erupted in loud cheering. everyone in a three-mile radius was watching the game, except for dumb old me, walking down the street like an idiot.
why is nonconformism a million times more difficult in college than it was in high school?
not conforming is making me lonely; being lonely is making me detached and irritable; being detached and irritable is making me all the more unpopular.
